Month: June 2025

I took a short nap and woke up feeling very weird…like I was out of place or something. It was very strange to come out of resting and enter into a shaky, unstable frame of mind.

So I had to re-evaluate what was happening at that moment. (I’ve had to do that more often than not since this menopause thing started). I am not sure if I was disturbed because of hot, sticky weather or if it was something I am still struggling with subconsciously. Unsteady and disoriented, all I could visualize clearly was the idea of getting back into bed and trying the “wake up” again.

But my body won’t relax now that I have shocked myself with the thought that I might be missing something. So here we go on another episode…

I have sat down to my first cup of coffee, thinking…

So, I ask myself, “why are you thinking about so much stuff this morning?” ANd the reality is that I ALWAYS think about so many things – matter of fact – as soon as my brain starts consciously acting. I usually wake myself up to start thinking about things. So at this point, I am believing that there is something I should be doing for the heavenly kingdom. But that thought is quickly overshadowed by thoughts of catching up on schoolwork, filling out time sheet corrections, and wondering if I should go shopping early to take advantage of the paid membership.

Then I remember my cup of coffee over there, abandoned and cold, lost within the chaotic shuffle of my early morning mind. As I walk to the microwave to reheat the coffee (again), I remember that I needed to mail “something” out today. And that is how it always happens.